My work is about helping people digest their life experiences so their soul/spirit can innervate their body and life

I read this book while on a cruise ship with my dad’s side of the family:

Reading it on a cruise ship was interesting because I usually try to eat more live organic foods, avoid dairy, eggs, chicken, pork, and minimize processed foods. This is hard to do on a cruise because of all the different people from different cultures with different food safety practices and experiences handling your food (as this book shares, what is in our colon is fine if kept in balance, but what is in other people’s colon can make us sick, because we haven’t been exposed to it yet).

You may think a cruise takes you to a few destinations, but it also brings a multitude of countries to your digestive system as well, through their staff and travelers. The safest food may be the most processed. There are times when preservatives and anti microbial ingredients help us. Question mark.

The book describes how different organs and sections of our digestive system have different roles (including the small intestine making a lot of mucccus to protect us from being digested along with our food, but when we transition to the large intestines, the goal is to suck back all the excess liquid we put out to make digestive juices and mucus, so we don’t dehydrate).

The book starts by explaining how “they” thought there was only the central and peripheral nervous system, each with its own neurotransmitter, but the author went on to prove that the enteric (digestive) nervous system has its own neurotransmitter (serotonin).

It’s interesting, because when people take an SRI (serotonin reuptake inhibitor) for depression, some will exhibit nausea followed by diarrhea and then constipation, because of the role serotonin also plays in the digestive system.

Also, markers for Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s can be seen in the digestive system as well as in the cranial brain, and mice with megacolon will have spots on their skin/fur/coat even if they are able to prevent the development of megacolon. How we are on the outside, signals our risk factors and need for help on the inside.

The studies for megacolon were interesting, as they found that it is cells outside the neural tube (which forms the brain and spinal cord) in wing like shapes on either side (called the neural crest) that end up traveling very far in the body to innervate the digestive system. The way they tried to figure out what was happening, was to take cells that had traveled very far and put them back into a younger embryo to see if they would travel again, they were trying to see if there was something wrong with the cells or with the environment. When they found the genes responsible for these systems (by accident, when trying to study heart and blood pressure), at first there were two genetic defects and only one was found in humans with this condition, but then they found humans with the other defect and then they found several other causative defects (there are many ways to lead to what looks like the same outcome, and this is why I work with Unique Psychology, Unique Health, and Felt Safety).

Current understanding is that, all these defects result in an abundance of something in the environment (extracellular matrix), that signals to the neural crest cells too early, that this is a good place to put down your anchor and convert into nerve cells (which do not travel like a neural crest cell, and just send out axons and wait to be found), resulting in the last portion of the colon not getting any innervation. Neural crest cells (souls) don’t make it that far, the colon becomes enlarged, because it can’t pump out garbage, and the portions without innervation need to be removed or this is fatal (much like people who are unable to walk their life path get sick and die, so they can try again in another life, the point is not to be prematurely successful, not to fall for early gifts of enlightenment , like enhanced psychic ability or spells, but to make it to the end, so the entire system can process what we experience, beginning to end, pulling back what we need, and not infecting others with what we have been through).

I think about my kids, the middle conceived via IVF, mostly because my body wasn’t ready to have another child yet. But medical science pushes believing they know best. My eggs did not respond to the last injection meant to mature them quickly before harvesting, I lost my entire first round and paid for more close attention in the second round (spinning my husband’s semen to see which ones swam to the top and then forcing these sperm into my eggs, no natural selection). It was only through adding these steps that they realized my eggs were not mature. So they bathed them in hormones after conception, which is not the normal order of events. And you can tell right away, how different our middle child is from our oldest and youngest, conceived “naturally”. In quotes because we still had help from a fertility clinic, as my cycle was not normal for my first, and they added progesterone for all 3 as a way to reduce the risk of miscarriage. In addition, I was on psychiatric medication when pregnant with my first two, one of the concerns was neural tube defect, so folic acid was recommended, probably a better one when I was pregnant with my second. And my first eats primarily processed foods.

The book shared that we can’t digest fiber, the only reason to eat it is because we are a culture of obesity, fiber makes us feel full and it helps strengthen our colon. My son’s human design says “he will try things but if he spits it out, don’t force him to eat it, it’s not good for him”. I’ve tried to honour this, and he has memories of liking vegetables, but not anymore, and he has also turned away from chocolate, and maybe other things. Is he trying to protect his fragile colon?

Let’s make note here that the author of this book Gershon (with an H) is the not the same as Gerson (no H) who is not very respectful of the body and its fragile limits, with his coffee enemas:

Our middle child frequently gets pain around her belly button. Which is relieved with application of the RestoreChi small/large intestine monthly track. Maybe the bottom of her digestive system lacks some innervation, given that her development was out of wack, she definitely thinks differently than most kids. In Esogetics, issues with the belly button can also be due to issues with mom. I induced the birth of all my kids (which means I had an epidural as well). The first at 41wks, the second at 39wks, and the last at 37.5wks. I wasn’t trying to experiment, I just felt so sick during pregnancy that I wanted them out. I also couldn’t attach to my middle child (I still struggle more with her than my other two), because of the lost IVF round, I was too scared to lose hope, so I just went through the motions. The sickness in my 2nd pregnancy had me wanting to die, and the unexpected surprise of my 3rd pregnancy (knowing how sick I get for the entire pregnancy) had me willing to abort if something was wrong. All of this caused harm to my children, which I am slowly trying to undo.

We don’t vaccinate our children because our eldest swelled up in reaction to a vaccine, and they found that black male babies were more at risk for autism from vaccines due to having a less mature digestive system (leaky gut, leaky brain). All of my kids are sensitive. I’m doing everything I can to heal them and to prevent them from being in situations where they get worse and a diagnosis is earned, that is hard to outgrow. I’ve had several, including dyslexia, bipolar, and IBS, and I was able to outgrow them by being true to myself. Anxiety still surfaces a bit, from time to time, but I am working through my addiction to seeking approval from others, I know I can still be kind, no matter what others think of me, even if my natal astrology says that I have hidden enemies, and I have learned that my greatest perpetrator and salvation can be me. NVC, Divine Healing, and the Information Field are tools I can use to help me shift.

Its worth noting, that when SRIs (serotonin reuptake inhibitors) are taken by someone with a tendency to exhibit bipolar, they tend to hypercycle between hypomania and depression, so they don’t really know what they are doing, and some of us may benefit more or less from mainstream medical support.

The moving of cells back to the start (in their attempts to understand why some people develop megacolon) reminds me of how we develop as souls. Many of us get caught up in life thinking “ok, this is as good as it gets, put down roots, earn money, retire, and enjoy (question mark) life”, and so our bodies self destruct, because that wasn’t the point, and we try again in a new life.

Reading this book reminded me of my Master’s in Neuroscience, small mention in this book by my Master’s advisor:

I have yet to read it because I lived it

I went into this topic because I was tired of watching my mom be sick and take no ownership over why. I knew our choices directed our lives, and if we choose not to work through our experiences, it takes a toll on our body. I was sadly torn away from this work because I took an antimalaria vaccine, had many relationships that broke my heart, and I had (still have) severe anxiety when it came to my relationships with anyone who stands in the way of my ability to learn. I judge myself for my actions which cause people to turn off the tap that flows growth in understanding my way. It was too hard to keep up the academic pace that I needed to feel good about myself under the heavy blanket of depression (which was that I really needed to be a mom, and the only reason I was studying, was to kill time until I could do so). So I left academia and continued my relationship, that would bring me to motherhood.

Once I became a mother, it became obvious that the way mainstream raises children causes harm. I left my work in research and began to study esoteric techniques because mainstream methods (including research) were not helping the person in front of me.

Now I sit at the edge of as far as I can go again. Wanting to help parents with sensitive kids, but knowing the complexity of what has gotten them to where they are now and what they have agreed to do in their own soul contracts, I am being pulled away. Maybe to serve the original goal, how does illness develop, and how do we address the stuckness, once it has been identified, so the soul doesn’t have to start again in another life, but can take a few steps back from where they can go no further, turn around, and see there are more ways to go about life. It is also possible that my life is just to learn and to help myself and my kids, and write about it, because writing is how I put together and integrate what I know.

I am watching myself, as my youngest is about to try public school (the first time she only lasted a couple hours, now I am just trying to get her to accept 1hr at school and 23hrs with mommy!).

She comes across as having separation anxiety, but I think it’s really more like a panic attack (in that we don’t know when or what will trigger her aggression/violence) and if the other doesn’t recognize her as needing help, giving her a tight hug, and silence to process, of course she’s afraid to go in without me (if I continue to be the only person who has been able to drop my judgement and attempt to control by being mean or condescending and help her). In my own coping, I have set up our game library:

As well as a Barbie station, several colouring stations, even play dough (not my favorite), and I moved the cutlery drawer up to the top, put away all of our plastic dishes and utensils, and organized a workout area in the basement:

Much like I put together an elaborate truck themed 2nd birthday party for my son while going through IVF for my 2nd and got him a solid collection of duplo sets. I cope by organizing, because I don’t want my own fear to interfere with my youngest seeing if she has the courage to trust her grade 1 teacher and enter into a classroom that is of interest to her, which would also give her the opportunity to make local friends. I understand why parents aren’t allowed to go to school with their kids, we have an alternative school we can return to if she truly needs me. Part of me is excited for some freedom to grow my business and be more of service, but I am born under the cross of the unexpected, where I will unexpectedly be put in positions to care for others. Whether this means my youngest or the feelings of my clients, which they are entitled to, even if I don’t want them to feel guilty, however they feel is information from their life/soul on what they are meant to be doing instead. I don’t like to see people in pain, because people in pain hurt others. But…

As a practitioner, I continue to grow, because, like the neural crest cells, I know we have to innervate the entire colon, I have not been given the luxury to stop along the way, the environment was never receptive enough for me to be fooled that stopping short was my end point.

What about you? What’s your life story? Would you like to understand it more? Get pulled out from where you are stuck, so you can keep going? Not many people want to do this. It’s slow and steady work, trying to understand your Unique Psychology, Unique Health, and Felt Safety, compiling what you’ve been through, and small experiments, when you’re ready, to see if/how you respond, and what you benefit from.

When I say I focus on health, I don’t mean exercise, diet, and positive thinking, I mean understanding how experiences make us feel and respecting our unique life path, strengths, limits, and needs, because denying this hurts us more than what most people focus on, when they think of health. Mainstream says “force, push yourself, push your kids”, I say “be kind, try to understand, hold space, you have a life plan, it’s scary, but when you’re true to yourself, you will be ok”.